it really comes down to sticking with the practice, the journey. day in day out. a beautiful monotony. monotony from the outside, incredibly rich on the inside. i feel so grateful for this opportunity to pursue what i want from moment to moment. a kind of freedom that's so difficult (likely impossible) to surrender once you've tasted it.

i mean, i could surrender this freedom to work to make ends meet for people that depend on me if that is required. but i wouldn't be able to surrender this freedom if it was only for myself.

like i'd rather be homeless, living in mountains / forests or whatever off of the land / ashrams / whatnot than surrender this freedom of being able to pursue what i want to pursue.

so many things i want to explore. so many ideas. so curious. i want to keep going. to keep exploring.

onward.