i'm in the mood to create, not consume. i don't want to read essays listen to music or watch anything. i just want to express myself.

and i think it's important to recognize these phases and surrender to them.

this is why rigid schedules don't work.

i may spend some weeks hyper social, scrolling feeds, engaging with all kinds of posts and people and whatnot. and then once i have an inspiration to bring something that i consider special into the world, i want to retreat into myself to cultivate that expression and gently bring it into a form that i can share with others. and that can take time!

i want to allow my natural self to express itself in the ways that it wants to without getting in its way as i've been doing like all my life.

good realization. now i need to design my life around this. because i think this is a really fundamental design principle for how i operate, create and also all of my workflows, etc. my personal AI needs to understand the phases that i go through and should do its best to adapt to the unique requirements of each phase!