ok just want to think about how i want to engage with social media / internet moving forward.

the past few weeks i was trying to be more active on x: post more, reply more, reach out to people etc. but when i look back at it, i think it had a net negative impact. ok i take that back. it helped me learn to not give a fuck about posting - which is a huge win. i'm now comfortable going from thought to shipping without letting the craving for perfection (i.e., anxiety hiding behind perfectionism) hold me back.

so while that experience was valuable, i don't think i can do my best work with such an exposure to the internet.

firstly, x (and any social platform) is not incentivized to protect my attention in the way that i want to. and i found that the majority of posts on x are noise. distractions. this isn't even about x / any social platform. most of our world is noise!

people are really slow to adapt. and the faster things change, more people (and thus more posts) will be noise. we are becoming more deluded exponentially fast.

so yea this is more a statement about all of us. about the human condition. we get attached to views, and lose touch with the rapidly shifting reality below our feet.

i don't need to... i shouldn't get caught up in the short-term cycles on x.

at the same time, x is the best place to discover worthwhile breakthroughs in any field (except for maybe like arts? i'm not sure, but even for that i think if the art is good enough it breaks through on x as well - need to validate this).

and - many people i want to connect with express themselves on x.

^ this train of thought isn't the way to approach this. need to view things at a much more fundamental level: what do i want to give my attention to, and what do i not want to give my attention to. and then we build up from there.